I need to confess.

Ready?

Within a month, I failed my New Year’s commitment to leave my baggage back in 2012.

Well, maybe not complete failure, more of a pause. I spent months preparing to write the blog that has frolicked in my head for Oh. So. Long.

Then, at the end of 2o12, I abandoned my trunk of fear along with my other unwanted baggage. Left it behind (or so I thought). I gathered my courage, wrote the first post, and hovered over the “publish” button that would send it out into the world.

And froze.

Sweaty-palms-heart-racing-stomach-churning-I-can’t-do-this froze. I was ready to grant my former trunk of fear full permission to halt my new endeavor.

Perfection

You see, I tend to expect perfection in myself – not sure if I am fearful of failure or judgment. My current website is “homemade” in iWeb while I wait for completion of the “professional” site. The perfectionist in me balks at presenting an incomplete and imperfect site. I was inspired last year to put down perfectionism and start now, right where I stand.

Thankfully, as I grasped the fear trunk, I stopped to reflect and sent texts of SOS to two friends. They encouraged me to release my hold on fear and click “publish.”

I am ever so grateful.

Lesson Learned

My burden of unwanted baggage must remain behind me but complete abandonment of said pieces will take time. I might return for a quick visit now and then.

That is okay.

As long as I recognize the baggage, pray about it, seek wise counsel, take a deep breath, and resolutely take steps in the correct direction again.

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